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Don't Leave Me

November 25, 2011
By TaintedxSanity SILVER, Saguache, Colorado
TaintedxSanity SILVER, Saguache, Colorado
9 articles 2 photos 4 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I'd rather be hated for who i am then be loved for who I'm not"
"is it better to be hurt by the raw truth of be comfortably deceived?"

My shaking cries kept me from the sleep I so desperately wanted to fall victim to. My purple carpet was plagued with white crumbled up tissues that couldn’t hold as much snot as I cried. I wanted nothing more in the whole world then to stop, then to silence the wretched tears that swelled my reddened eyes about 5 times their size, laying down wasn’t helping the matter either. My head felt like it was being pumped with water getting denser, and denser. I was getting a massive headache that made the slumber I couldn’t have all the more appealing. It wouldn’t of been this bad if my last hope, my best friend hadn’t given up on me like the rest of the people in this god forsaken town that all had one mission, to break the odd girl, the one that looked different, the one that wore more makeup then them, the one they were afraid of. I was truly alone for the first time in my life. I was leaning on her for comfort and yet her cutting words remained in my mind echoing as reminders I was a lost cause “I can’t help you” over and over again. My whole body pulsated with the pain of yet to be forgotten sobs that promised their return once again to wreak havoc on my already aching heart. My arms stung and burned with the ice cold washcloth I had to place over them to silence the pain for even a few seconds, underneath multiple burns that looked like cuts were hidden in the salvation of the cool cloth. The only real disturbing part of it was the fact that they were not an accident. Why was I doing this? No wonder they all had left me to fend for my own, I was going insane. I had never done this nor planned on doing it, the very thought of self-inflicting wounds on myself gave me shivers, I had never cut, it hurt too bad for me, so I had resulted to heating a needle and burning myself multiple times. I knew I needed help, something was extremely wrong...again. She just had to come back for me, I knew she would she had never left me alone like this before, she would help me….she had to.

The author's comments:
I'd like for hate comments kept away as this is a personal experience thanks ~

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on Dec. 2 2011 at 9:03 pm
TheCapturedBat GOLD, Belen, New Mexico
12 articles 0 photos 88 comments

Favorite Quote:
If all else perished and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger.
-- Emily Bronte, Wuthering Heights

such pain. your description of loss is so vivid and expressive.