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I Can't Keep Loving You.

February 15, 2011
By amanda.bower SILVER, Stacy, Minnesota
amanda.bower SILVER, Stacy, Minnesota
9 articles 2 photos 10 comments

Favorite Quote:
maybe i know that you'll crave my secure arms someday, but i'll have come across someone who wasn't afraid. and that's why i can't let go.

maybe it's necessary to fall out of love.
otherwise, i think my bones would eventually
erode with an over-dosage of saline and intrepid
affection. and as much as i adored the thought of
melting into your skin, i was merely a unique ingredient
of oil and soluble water.

you would never allow my fingers to
press into your ribcage.

but i'm okay.
i'm licking my chapped lips free of
poison you dripped
onto the cracks and
seizing the moment of recognition
of a beautiful boy;
i guess i don't care if that hurts you.
his hands are soft and keen
like a piece of cotton clothing
from the dryer and his eyes are
fierce with a containment
of passion that blend in with his laughter.
i found my escape from your guarded
presence and pointed my dreams
in a new direction,
and i promise you this;
you don't have to worry about
occupying the majority of my time

i wanted a giddy foolish grin to
creep across my face and
a rapid heartbeat when
love ravished the best parts of me.
your crooked smile left me
breathless, but the aftermath of
the baggage you tossed on my
mattress only left my eyes dreary
and bloodshot.

i'm not wishing you angst
or regret or disappointment.
i'm just asking for my heart
back, so i can place it directly
in the hands of a boy who
will keep the blood flowing
evenly throughout my body.

because you just can't promise me that.

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This article has 9 comments.

JRaye PLATINUM said...
on Feb. 13 2015 at 8:32 am
JRaye PLATINUM, Dorr, Michigan
43 articles 10 photos 523 comments

Favorite Quote:
"If you build your house far enough away from Trouble, then Trouble will never find you."

"Have you ever looked fear in the face and said, 'I just don't care.'?"

This is absolutely wonderful, amazing, I just...speechless :)

on Feb. 12 2015 at 9:47 am
haley101 DIAMOND, Windsor, Connecticut
70 articles 5 photos 195 comments

Favorite Quote:
“Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness. It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift.”

― Mary Oliver

i love this. this is beautiful.

on Oct. 15 2011 at 1:40 pm
billlover420 GOLD, Justin, Texas
12 articles 0 photos 70 comments

Favorite Quote:
Boy, when you're dead, they really fix you up. I hope to hell when I do die somebody has sense enough to just dump me in the river or something. Anything except sticking me in a goddam cemetery.  People coming and putting a bunch of flowers on your stomach on Sunday, and all that crap. Who wants flowers when you're dead? Nobody. ~J.D. Salinger,The Catcher in the Rye,


on Oct. 3 2011 at 5:23 pm
XxilybbyxX SILVER, Saginaw, Michigan
5 articles 0 photos 40 comments

Favorite Quote:
Sometimes we build up walls, not to keep people out; but to see who cares enough to break them down.


on Aug. 26 2011 at 12:28 pm
sasssgirrrl22 PLATINUM, Pearl River, New York
27 articles 0 photos 266 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Giving up is not a part of my vocabulary."
"Don't let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game."
"Truth be told I miss ya, truth be told I'm lying."

Your way with words is truly breathtaking. That's all I gotta say:D

on Aug. 10 2011 at 4:06 pm
Subliminalpoet BRONZE, Columbus, Georgia
1 article 0 photos 5 comments

Favorite Quote:
"In order to understand my train of thought you'll have to put yourself in my position"

You need to publish a book! They're that good

on Jul. 19 2011 at 3:49 am
Ha-5-rika SILVER, Visakapatnam, Other
9 articles 7 photos 62 comments

Favorite Quote:
Life is what your thoughts make it.
Happiness, success and the greatest of achievements are nothing if you don't have someone to share it with.
A life lived for others is a life worthwhile - Albert Einstein.

You are a wizard of words. And you are wonderful. This poem exactly depicts my feelings too. All your poems are fabulous. You should keep up the good work.

liveinwords said...
on Jun. 5 2011 at 5:55 pm
Wow! I'm sure you've heard a million times how phenominal of a writer you are, so don't let me be the first to tell you!((: I'm absolutely blown away by your articulate writing skills. Do me a favor...never stop writing.Continue to inject your poetry into the souls that are willing to read it and those that it catches by surprise. You have a gift, never loose it!

Aderes47 GOLD said...
on Mar. 31 2011 at 2:11 pm
Aderes47 GOLD, Cambridge, Massachusetts
11 articles 0 photos 897 comments

Favorite Quote:
You will find as you look back upon your life that the moments when you have truly lived are the moments when you have done things in the spirit of love.
Henry Drummond

I love your poems so much!!!!!