It has been 6 months since Chad and I have started going out. Chad and I are so different that I can’t believe that it has lasted this long. But lately he has been so busy at camp that he hasn’t written me in weeks. In my heart I really just want talk to him and let him know how I am feeling but in my mind I just want to leave it alone and not start a fight. But everyone always says to listen to your heart and although I don’t want to start a fight I decided that if I want this relationship to be strong and last longer I have to listen to my heart and talk to him. The only problem was that the time difference between New York and Greece are soo far apart that its hard to catch him on aol to talk to him. But one day when I wasn’t busy, I caught him at the right time to talk.




“Hey Chad what’s up?”

“Not much.”

“How have you been? I miss you soo much and I haven’t received a letter from you lately?”

“Good.”

“Oh that’s good.” I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. That he was only giving me one word answers. A volcano of deep pain just erupted inside of me. Chad is my boyfriend and I’m trying to talk to him and all he’s doing is giving me one word answers. I couldn’t believe it. “So I wanted to talk to you about something.”

“What about?”

“Us. Is everything okay lately? I feel like I haven’t seen you in ages and lately I just feel that our relationship is falling apart.”
“Oh. Sorry.”

“Chad, is that all you can say? I’m trying to talk to you about our relationship and all you can respond with are one word answers. I’m pouring my heart and my soul out to tell you this and all you can say is sorry! It was already hard enough for me to talk to you about this. I can’t believe you right now!”

“Well what else do you want me to say? Do you expect me to cry and get on my knees to beg for forgiveness? Unfortunately I’m not that kind of guy and if you expect me to be, well then I’m sorry but I’ll never be that kind of guy.”

“No, but I expect you to at least give me more than one word answers. I expect you to think about how I’m feeling right now and at least try to feel some sympathy for me. Your girlfriend, but obviously you can’t even do that.”

“Whatever Lexi, look I I’m going to go to bed, I’ll talk to you later.” As I watched him sign off, tears formed in my eyes. I couldn’t even believe him right now. The fact that I was courageous enough to try to let him know how I was feeling and all he could was is sorry? That he couldn’t even try to at least show me that he cared? Right now at this very moment my heart was ripping into pieces minute by minute. I don’t even know what to do, but all I can say is that as of right now I have a feeling that this relationship is done. A couple days after the fight Chad had sent me a letter apologizing with the way he acted.
Dear Lexi,

I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am and that I was wrong. I was wrong for acting the way I did and you’re right I should have at least shown some kind of sympathy for you. It’s just that lately I have so much on my plate and I’ve been trying to deal with it. But I know that it doesn’t give me any excuse to ignore you and not talk to you about it. But after thinking about what happened a couple of days ago I have decided that I can’t put you through that again. Lexi you are such a sweet girl and I don’t deserve someone like you. I think that right now we should just focus on what we need to get done and leave it be. I’m sorry I have to do this and I really hope you find someone that can treat you the way you deserve to be treated.





Love,






Chad
Although I knew that this relationship was done, I just couldn’t let it become part of my reality. I stayed in my room crying for hours and hours and nothing would stop me. I just couldn’t believe that this was actually happening to me. But all I know was that after today, I everything I have done. For the rest of the night, I lay in my bed crying, feeling nothing but pain and regret.