The thought of surpassing the real meaning of my "real name" is too much. The burden of beating and surpassing all the "winners" of the world so I can avoid being a "loser" in others' mind without taking any "Ls" possible. Perhaps that's why I chose a common name when I had the choice of picking an English name. "Linda", an old granny name that was relatively widespread and too common within the Asian population because they had no sense of time periods or care much about the American society. No more expectations of being "the best of the best" when digressing from those that were expecting more than what was already there. That was the thing about expectations. The way that no expectations merely equaled to excitement to things that weren't being easily elected. In such a minute way possible to comprehend and dive deeper into others in such a sense without being too overwhelming. All parents believe that their children should inherit the best of themselves, I think otherwise. Though the thought of having two children that inherit the worst part of me possible did not aide with the fear of raising kids that naturally came with a 50/50 chance of either being in prison or manipulate others enough to turn themselves into billionaires. So how about giving them common names, perhaps, "Sam", "Jacob", "Elizabeth", "Lily" or "Beth". I think they'd despise it so much that they would wish karma could curse me.