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Questions- Thoughts of Love

November 21, 2014
By Adri8Bubbles GOLD, The Plains, Ohio
Adri8Bubbles GOLD, The Plains, Ohio
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Favorite Quote:
"Be yourself, everyone else is taken" :)


When I think of you.  I can’t begin to describe, you make my stomach jump like a gymnast, but my body grow still, and longing for something lost or undiscovered- unknown to me. 

I can’t believe someone so perfect in my mind could even begin to care for or love someone like me.

I can only seem to believe that you would get tired of me, but not be with me even for a while.

I don’t know, I guess I just wonder where your mind goes- if you ever think of me or anyone else.  Could you ever think of me that way- or anyone- and would it last?  I sure hope so.

All I can think of in my mind’s absence is you, I long for answers to questions I’m afraid to ask.   

I always fall for people who don’t feel the same, and it kills me even when they do, because it never seems to work out.  I can’t help but wonder.  Why?  How?

I won’t let people in, and it makes me feel awful, but I don’t realize it until they leave, when I’m alone- left with my thoughts.

I feel as if I hurt them, but not on purpose- at least that’s not what I intend to do. 

I need help in this thing- love- sorting my thoughts, taking chances, letting people into the parts of me I don’t even like, so that they can help me accept them.

I want love, but I might have already found it, but not accepted it for what it was. 

Sometimes I just wish I could read people’s minds so I didn’t have to wonder what they thought, think, like, want- I would just know.

Can I?  Will I? Will you?  Do you?  No?  Yes?  I don’t know anymore, I just want to move on. Awkward?  Probably.  Worth it?  Most likely, but maybe not.  But why not exactly? 

What would we lose versus what we could gain- the answer seems obvious, but it’s one of the hardest things for me to fathom.

The idea of us makes me happy, excited, curious, anxious, and a little sad; because even if we end up together, right now we’re apart- and I hope it won’t be long before I find out all the answers.  


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Things I think about love sometimes


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on Dec. 1 2014 at 7:40 am
Olaf.lover GOLD, Fairfax, Virginia
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Favorite Quote:
"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, it is about learning to dance in the rain."

you really know what we are felling. Really moving peace that says everything everyone else is scared to say. I love your work... keep writing!