You were good
at these
I, never
was
So this is my attempt
to tempt you
to forgive
me.
You thought
“someday”
was now
but it was
never the day
we both wanted
it to be.
I confused you
me
everyone around
we
and I really blew it
this time.
I miss being
your friend.
it gets
darker, earlier
and later
later
later later
longer
and it is
harder
harder
hardest for me to believe that
I am forgivable.
My silence and avoidance
was not in anger,
it was
harder not to
speak to you.
I can blame it on
him
but it
was
me who promised
that silence.
that silence that
hurt
you
so
bad.
This has to
be
for now, as it is.
but always know,
that this ;), always meant
exactly
what you thought
it meant
and I will always
value
your being, your soul.