Every day
I hear the kids laugh at me
It doesn't matter what I say
Is their decree

I have made myself numb
Numb to their taunts
I don't even cry some
But they still forever haunt

I am the weird kid
The freak
That needs to keep a lid
On her hopeful streak

You take a look at me
And I'm not there
But still, I'll never be free
To have someone care

The pain hurts
Even though I can't feel it
It will always shred at my skirts
And keep my hope from being lit

I secretly cry in the night
Wishing for a break
Where I can be a bright light
And no longer be a fake

I want to show who I am
But they keep me from showing
And keep me locked up like a clam
They keep me from crowing

They keep me from being happy
Just because I am different
I have to keep from being sappy
So in gossip, I won't be current

I suffer quietly
No looks
As I sit silently
I just the girl who hits the books

Instead of being a star athlete
Or a super model
My feelings are now concrete
Everything you say is inaudible

To my protected heart
So now I have no feelings
Because of the part
The bullies were dealing

I am now no longer
Someone you can speak to
Without the chills getting stronger
Because they twisted me askew