hugs are given- not taken
hugs are accepted- not forced
thats why im so distant now eric
i dont want to force you
because i dont want to scare you
-lose you
because still, impossibly
i love you
and love the way you
used to hold me
safe in your strong arms
protective- but not overly
squeezing- but not suffocating
pressing me into your chest
so hard, yet soft
so beautiful
just like your brown eyes
not mud, but chocolate
melted chocolate- prepared to harden
at the sight of any danger
to what you swore you loved endlessly

me

but now you're gone
and i'm left here
swimming in pain- still-
drowning in memories that are
better off dead
memories of our first kiss
of when we first said those beautifully painfully heartbreaking words
"i love you"
a sweet caress on my soul- as your body caressed
mine- so sweetly
as we danced our one dance
swaying with the other
in a perfect sync
that distorted to become
my lonly solo
- still- unbearingly yearning
for the thing that willsend it
tumbling head over heels back
to the want of the bite of cold steel
- that of course being

you