I cannot open my mouth
Because there are bees
Stuffed in my cheeks

I cannot open my eyes
Because I cannot bear to
See the faces of those around me

I cannot scream
Because my throat
Is swollen shut

I cannot sleep
Because nightmares
Haunt my dreams

I cannot cry
Because my dried eyes
Are covered with sand

I cannot laugh
Because my soul
Is split in half

I cannot love
Because my heart
Is eternally broken

I cannot hope
Because I am
Consumed by disappointment

I do not feel happiness,
I do not feel sadness,
I do not feel anger,
I do not feel envy,
I do not feel at all.

I am numb.