You always want what you don’t have

I have felt this feeling many times 

But mostly I end up wanting what I had to start

The nagging of siblings and arguments create this feeling

This feeling of wishing you were alone

This feeling of fury and frustration

This feeling that quickly goes away once the outcome actually happens

This feeling happened to me when suddenly three bedrooms of my house became empty

When their mess wasn’t just a pet peeve, it was the life of the room

When the stench of a brother fades away to dust 

When instead of walking down the hallway, siblings are across the country

When the lack of nagging turns into loneliness

Suddenly this feeling goes away

You always want what you don’t have

Until you lose what you had 

Suddenly this feeling goes away