For many years I wondered why you left

The answer was with me all along

Right in front of me even.

A horrible woman, who I thought was loving

Yet it’s just what I knew

I thought getting hit, yelled at, and made fun of by

my own mother was normal.

I was wrong.

She was the reason you left,

And yet I thought it was myself.

At a young age, that woman told me I should have never been born

That you and her were too young to care for a kid.

She wanted me gone.

And blamed your leaving on me.

So I did what I knew

I listened to her,

Believed her

Because her words were the only thing

I could hear.

And for many countless dark nights,

I waited,

I waited for you,

Or anyone to help me

And then I went from home to home

Still not finding your sunlight.

Then, I gave up.

I thought it was the end.

But, I managed to make my own sunlight

With the help of two amazing people.

I found a way to save myself,

And years later,

I finally found you.

I hoped you would reply to that long paragraph of me

hoping you were the right person I was looking for.

And the reply you gave me, sent me to tears.

Thanks to that hope,

I was able to reach out for anyone to grab hold.

By finding a new family,

And finding my way back to you.

You were my sun

My knight in shining armor

And I was the princess.

A father figure I sadly never had.

But, now I do.

(Thank you for giving me hope in the future)

To my long lost father