Now all there is left to do is wait
for that devastating call.

The call that says you are
no longer with the one who love you anymore
that your big strong heart
grew weak and stopped beating

The call that will inform me
that you have gone to a better place
where there is no such thing
as chemo or radiation
or even cancer for the matter

The call that will tell me that
there will be an empty spot next to me at the dinner table for now on
and that I can no longer cheat off of you when we play our family games

The call that makes me realize
that you wont be able to see me
walk down the aisle or watch my children grow up

So now I'm waiting
for that dreadful awful call
that will break my heart
and change my life forever.