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its not jealousy i swear

April 12, 2011
By ThisIsRivera SILVER, Orchardlake, Michigan
ThisIsRivera SILVER, Orchardlake, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
" Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must lead."


If I can close my eyes long enough to feel the closing
Is that closure
I can't seem to talk myself into the daydreams or the lies being fulfilling
There's no longer that satisfaction I once felt to envelope myself in a false memory
Make it up if you don't like the reality just make it up
But when in reality longer than a dream reality becomes more substantial more unbearable
I want to be apart of everything I want that rocket scene and those starry nights
The anything I dream yet I get nothing
I shut it out and wait and feel the feelings I'm only guessing the touch
Way to much its a dream and I've pretended it was an alternate universe where I was adored and welcomed
dits the talent I tell you its the satisfactory of knowing this is me and my skill together and I can dress with no door because I'm not ashamed
Long enough I've desired and achd for that feeling
If I'm dressing with a closed door then no one one can see
No one will even no if I'm no longer there


The author's comments:
I literally wrote it as I was typing it into the box whatever I haven't even reread it

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on Jul. 25 2011 at 9:12 pm
ThisIsRivera SILVER, Orchardlake, Michigan
6 articles 0 photos 11 comments

Favorite Quote:
" Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must lead."

Thanks so much I love hearing feed

on Jul. 6 2011 at 6:49 pm
secrets_of_silence GOLD, Gisborne, Other
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Favorite Quote:
life had i loved the more
had it but passed away
as quietly as the day
ebbs from the darkening star.


-emanuel litvinoff

for not having read it its amazing