Unwanted pain fills my heart,
As careless voices tear me apart,
I watch the pieces of me scatter,
Pretending that it doesn’t matter.
I walk outside in the rain,
Letting it wash away all my pain,
I tell myself I shouldn’t forgive them,
They’ll just hurt me all over again.
But I’ve always worn my heart on my sleeve,
And cared for those who couldn’t believe,
I have to assure them someone still cares,
Even when my own pain I can’t even bare.
I can’t bring myself to let go of that smile,
Even when it means I go an extra mile,
I just love to see others so happy,
Especially when it’s because of me.
So tonight when I cry myself to sleep,
Knowing I’ve dug this hole too deep,
I’ll tell myself “some day it’ll end,”
Maybe I should just stop playing pretend…