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I still want to die.

June 23, 2011
By maggetatorisawesome GOLD, Crestwood, Kentucky
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;Take away this mask of flesh and bone and see me for my soul alone.&quot;-Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher<br /> &quot;All of your friends are gone, and you were barely holding on.&quot;-Your Friends are Gone by Circa Survive

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I want to
find a hiding place and
curl up, like
Esther in
The Bell Jar, and
be the cause of my
own demise.
Nobody will bring me down.
I am in control of my
self.
Nobody decides when I am
ready to go.
I'll do it myself.
I'LL conquer myself.
Nobody else will.

I want to hide myself,
take the fifty
sleeping pills,
not be found so that my
plan works.
I want to
see the light,
touch death,
and fall into it.

I'll
never come back.

© Rebecca S., Coventry, RI

The author's comments:
I recently finished The Bell Jar. No, it did not give me these thoughts of suicide, I've always had them, forever, even after I left the mental hospital when I attempted suicide.
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