Tired of having to pretend
Sick with faking to fit in
You think you know when I lie
But you don’t know all the time
The feeble lies that you see through
I make transparent, just for you
You think you see the real me?
How can you?

I keep my feelings deep inside
I hate always trying to hide
But if you ever were to see
The thoughts that truly trouble me
Then maybe you would finally see
The me I should not be
Why should I be me?
What’s wrong with me, besides everything?

I’m on the outside, looking in
No matter what I can’t get in
The constant hurt that I feel
Will take so much, just to heal
I fake a smile, yes it’s true
I fake this smile, in spite of you
When can I truly be me?
Only after you become accepting?

You broke my heart so long ago
You broke my heart even though
It wasn’t yours to break
It wasn’t even yours to take
You still don’t know how much it hurts
To hear you say those hurtful words
Why do you influence me?
Is this friendship? Is this love?

This is nothing, we are nothing
But even if we could’ve felt something
We shall never know
We must learn to let it go
I’ll hide my feelings, till the end of time
For you will never be mine
Can I live with my decision?
Do I really have a choice?