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Alopicia Totalis

December 14, 2012
By BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
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I'm different.
For a few reasons actually,
I'm more mature for my age..
I'm more insecure than any other person
But most importantly I have no hair
I get targeted and left alone in despair.
Some of you may not know what this is so let me inform you:
Alopecia Total-is is when you lose your hair; eyebrows, eyelashes, hair on your head, etc.
Now before you all judge:
To Girls, imagine yourself what you would do with no hair.
As if you woke up one morning without hair.
Well, that's exactly how it is for me everyday.
I hate when girls say they hate their hair..
They wouldn't understand how quickly I would take it from them.
I see with girls with gorgeous locks
Right then my mind is blocked.
So insecure
Yet nobody to let out to.
People say I'm brave for doing this
Then why don't I feel it?
When I look at myself,
I see myself as an outcast
People judge when they don't understand..
People tell me all the time,
"At least I have hair.."
It hurts.
What makes it even more weird is that i run my long fingers through silky hair of a stranger.
I can't walk out the door bald..
I hate the looks, the eyes bulging with stares.
People make me feel like I'm from a zoo.
Guys never like me for me..
I'm weird, strange; nova.
It is so hard for me to go to High School,
or even anywhere in public..
I would never grant this on any other person, for it brings emotional pain which i wouldn't cast on the person who I may not get along with the best.
One of the motto's that keep me going is:
NEVER SAY NEVER. -Justin Bieber<3

© Rebecca R., Edison, NJ

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BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 29 2013 at 6:31 pm
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
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Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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Tell me when you are on and hopefully I can get on in time to talk to you live. If you have any further questions, just ask away!(: Don't be shy!!
Wings10FeetTall GOLD said...
on Aug. 29 2013 at 3:51 pm
Wings10FeetTall GOLD, Myrtle Beach, South Carolina
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Aw, dang. :( I was hoping to talk to you live. What about the TI forums?
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 29 2013 at 3:17 pm
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
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Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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I do, but not that often.
Wings10FeetTall GOLD said...
on Aug. 28 2013 at 7:32 pm
Wings10FeetTall GOLD, Myrtle Beach, South Carolina
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May your words be sharp.<br /> - Christopher Paolini<br /> <br /> <br /> Nobody&#039;s going to wait for you, so do it now.<br /> -Ingrid Michaelson<br /> <br /> <br /> Broken hearts heal, but never the same.<br /> - Jessica Romo<br /> <br /> Idiots rely on luck.<br /> -Sherlock Holmes

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Hey, do you ever go into the General Chat?
Wings10FeetTall GOLD said...
on Aug. 28 2013 at 7:06 pm
Wings10FeetTall GOLD, Myrtle Beach, South Carolina
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May your words be sharp.<br /> - Christopher Paolini<br /> <br /> <br /> Nobody&#039;s going to wait for you, so do it now.<br /> -Ingrid Michaelson<br /> <br /> <br /> Broken hearts heal, but never the same.<br /> - Jessica Romo<br /> <br /> Idiots rely on luck.<br /> -Sherlock Holmes

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Oh, okay. Thanks!
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 28 2013 at 3:52 pm
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
21 articles 0 photos 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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Hair on your head, eyebrows, etc. Not pubes.. lol. It comes out in clumps, and it affects both males and females
Wings10FeetTall GOLD said...
on Aug. 27 2013 at 6:58 pm
Wings10FeetTall GOLD, Myrtle Beach, South Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
May your words be sharp.<br /> - Christopher Paolini<br /> <br /> <br /> Nobody&#039;s going to wait for you, so do it now.<br /> -Ingrid Michaelson<br /> <br /> <br /> Broken hearts heal, but never the same.<br /> - Jessica Romo<br /> <br /> Idiots rely on luck.<br /> -Sherlock Holmes

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Okay. So, does the Alopicia Totalis only affect girls? Also, does all of your hair fall out at once, or will it come out in clumps over time the way it does for cancer paniets? And, finally, is it just the hair on your head or also the hair on the rest of your body?
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 27 2013 at 1:56 pm
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
21 articles 0 photos 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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Not at all! Ask away. :)
Wings10FeetTall GOLD said...
on Aug. 26 2013 at 6:39 pm
Wings10FeetTall GOLD, Myrtle Beach, South Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
May your words be sharp.<br /> - Christopher Paolini<br /> <br /> <br /> Nobody&#039;s going to wait for you, so do it now.<br /> -Ingrid Michaelson<br /> <br /> <br /> Broken hearts heal, but never the same.<br /> - Jessica Romo<br /> <br /> Idiots rely on luck.<br /> -Sherlock Holmes

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Sure. :) Hey, I've got a q couple of questions about this, if you don't mind.
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 26 2013 at 11:50 am
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
21 articles 0 photos 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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Thank you so much! It means a lot to me. (:
Wings10FeetTall GOLD said...
on Aug. 25 2013 at 9:21 pm
Wings10FeetTall GOLD, Myrtle Beach, South Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
May your words be sharp.<br /> - Christopher Paolini<br /> <br /> <br /> Nobody&#039;s going to wait for you, so do it now.<br /> -Ingrid Michaelson<br /> <br /> <br /> Broken hearts heal, but never the same.<br /> - Jessica Romo<br /> <br /> Idiots rely on luck.<br /> -Sherlock Holmes

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Not a problem.
Wings10FeetTall GOLD said...
on Aug. 25 2013 at 9:20 pm
Wings10FeetTall GOLD, Myrtle Beach, South Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
May your words be sharp.<br /> - Christopher Paolini<br /> <br /> <br /> Nobody&#039;s going to wait for you, so do it now.<br /> -Ingrid Michaelson<br /> <br /> <br /> Broken hearts heal, but never the same.<br /> - Jessica Romo<br /> <br /> Idiots rely on luck.<br /> -Sherlock Holmes

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Not in the slightest.
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 25 2013 at 4:09 pm
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
21 articles 0 photos 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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That was such a sweet comment, and it literally made my day! :') Thank you soo much! It means the world to me, it really does. I am so glad I could get this out to more people to see. Would you mind refrencing others to it?
Wings10FeetTall GOLD said...
on Aug. 23 2013 at 3:18 pm
Wings10FeetTall GOLD, Myrtle Beach, South Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
May your words be sharp.<br /> - Christopher Paolini<br /> <br /> <br /> Nobody&#039;s going to wait for you, so do it now.<br /> -Ingrid Michaelson<br /> <br /> <br /> Broken hearts heal, but never the same.<br /> - Jessica Romo<br /> <br /> Idiots rely on luck.<br /> -Sherlock Holmes

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This is amazing, BILAFS! You're one of the best poets I've ever read. And I know that you're beautiful. :)
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 14 2013 at 8:25 pm
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
21 articles 0 photos 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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This really means the world to me. I love getting comments like this. *_* <33 Thank you so much! <3 :")
Truth_and_Love SILVER said...
on Aug. 14 2013 at 7:09 pm
Truth_and_Love SILVER, Ponte Vedra Beach, Florida
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This is beautiful! You are beautiful! This is a beautiful piece! I saw this in the chat, and you should be proud! This piece is so touching. I feel for you, girl. Keep up the writing. 
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 12 2013 at 10:08 am
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
21 articles 0 photos 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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I should be proud? :")
the-earth-between-our-toes SILVER said...
on Aug. 12 2013 at 10:02 am
the-earth-between-our-toes SILVER, Wales, Other
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This gives a really good message out. You should be proud
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 10 2013 at 6:44 pm
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
21 articles 0 photos 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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Really?? :")
allhallowsevekatie PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 10 2013 at 6:31 pm
allhallowsevekatie PLATINUM, Hampden, Massachusetts
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&quot;Believe me nothing is trivial&quot;(The Crow)

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this is so good really it deserves to be in the mag