I really meant to love you - I did.
Yet somewhere, during the leap over the
Line separating ‘Like’ and ‘Love’ , I lost myself.
You could possibly catch me out of the
Corner of your eye but before you rotate in
Hopes of capturing even a glimpse of me -
I seem to disappear almost as quickly as
The thought of seeing me crossed your mind.

Sometimes I believe that I simply crumbled
To the finest of dust beyond what the human eye
Could ever dream of seeing but no matter
What my erratic mind conjured up -
I knew that I was gone.

I really meant to love you - I swear I did.
I did so even when I first felt your grip on me
Loosening. It was then that I realized that you did not
Have any interest in learning about me.
Learning about what makes me who I am and
How I came to be and just what makes me, Me.
You did not see a point.
Well, maybe I did not see a point in it either.

I really meant to love you and maybe you really meant
To love me too, but - you let me go before the end came.
You gave up before seeing the prize.
You did not give me the chance that I so desperately
Wished for.
You did not give the time to fix my broken smile and you
Did not allow me to prove that I can reassemble and
Replace the parts that I lost in my descent.
You did not give me an opportunity and I am starting to
Think there was not one to give in the first place.

So you see - I really meant to love you, but I now
Know that you never really meant to love me.