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I Used To, But Not Anymore

September 1, 2014
By EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
81 articles 5 photos 1486 comments

Favorite Quote:
To love is to be vulnerable; Triumph is born out of struggle; We notice shadows most when they stand alone in the midst of overwhelming light.


I used to build walls around my heart ---
walls of glass,
which where my silent tears,
silently flowed
and dripped
down 
inside of me. 
 
I built the walls
because I was afraid to care.
Because my past
had taught me
to be frightened of goodness;
I was a walking heartache,
that time,
a long time ago. 
 
I tried to be a rock,
so I wouldn't get hurt
and so I couldn't feel;
but I at that time,
I didn't realize 
that we weren't made 
to be hard, 
we weren't made to be inhuman;
because we're humans,
and we can't help
but care and feel. 
 
I used to,
but not anymore,
and you can too ---
it's never too late,
unless you decide 

 

it's too late. 


The author's comments:

Haha, would you believe me if I told you that I wrote this poem at 1:03 am? Haha, I had to write while I had the inspiration. I used my experiences, my feelings, and my thoughts as I wrote this. I used to do this before, but now I don't anymore. Because someone important changed my life. And know that it's never too late, unless you decide it's really too late. But it is never too late, until the very end. I hope this all makes sense, and that my poem makes sense. I hope ya'll enjoy it, and thank ya'll for reading it. ^_^


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on Nov. 5 2014 at 7:20 pm
EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
81 articles 5 photos 1486 comments

Favorite Quote:
To love is to be vulnerable; Triumph is born out of struggle; We notice shadows most when they stand alone in the midst of overwhelming light.

Thank you, so much! You just made my day happier, haha. I wasn't expecting anyone to comment today. :) Haha, I can connect to that, very much. That's we writers do; haha ,write when we need too and feel the need too. :) Thank you so much, for encouraging me and making my day happier, my friend. :)

on Nov. 5 2014 at 10:47 am
authoress17 SILVER, Evans City, Pennsylvania
9 articles 0 photos 62 comments

Favorite Quote:
"If there is no such thing as magic...then what is writing?."-authoress17 (me)

Beautiful work! I can totally relate to this poem. I love the flow of it. I know those nights when you have inspiration and you just NEED to write. Anyway, great job and keep on writing!

on Oct. 13 2014 at 9:48 am
EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
81 articles 5 photos 1486 comments

Favorite Quote:
To love is to be vulnerable; Triumph is born out of struggle; We notice shadows most when they stand alone in the midst of overwhelming light.

Liv., haha. You are awesome. You are amazing. Never ever forget that, please. Because yu truly are. Thank you so much, for commenting, on so much of my writings. Thank you. Also, I'll try to publish my poems in a book, someday, haha. :) Thank you so much, again. :)

on Oct. 13 2014 at 8:06 am
Olivia-Atlet ELITE, Dardenne Prairie, Missouri
325 articles 10 photos 1165 comments

Favorite Quote:
"To these the past hath its phantoms,<br /> More real than solid earth;<br /> And to these death does not mean decay,<br /> But only another birth" <br /> - Isabella Banks

This is gorgeous :D I loved the intricate way it flowed along, and very ending when you said that it's never too late unless you decide it is. This is very powerful and exceedingly wonderful! I hope you publish your [pems in a book someday :)

on Sep. 21 2014 at 10:32 am
EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
81 articles 5 photos 1486 comments

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To love is to be vulnerable; Triumph is born out of struggle; We notice shadows most when they stand alone in the midst of overwhelming light.

Hey, Caramel. It's fine. :) I understand. I've been rather busy too. Thank you, so much; I'm glad you love it. :) And yes. :) Haha, and that is why I wanted to write it. Thank you so much, again. I won't, and I promise. I love you to, Caramel. Thanks again. :)

on Sep. 20 2014 at 11:15 pm
Xena_Zionne GOLD, Chicago, Illinois
16 articles 0 photos 34 comments

Favorite Quote:
&ldquo;I&#039;m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can&#039;t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don&#039;t deserve me at my best.&rdquo; -Marilyn Monroe

Hey Emily! I'm Sorry it's been awhile since i responded,life's been pretty busy. But I absolutely love this poem. It's beautiful!! I can totally relate to the poem and the fact that you wrote it so early. It's like if i don't write it now i'll never sleep. It burns in your chest and mind until it controls you forcing you to pick up the pen and pour your heart out. I love it and I love You!!. God this is beautiful please don't stop. don't ever stop.-Caramel Kisses!!

on Sep. 17 2014 at 9:28 am
EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
81 articles 5 photos 1486 comments

Favorite Quote:
To love is to be vulnerable; Triumph is born out of struggle; We notice shadows most when they stand alone in the midst of overwhelming light.

Aw, thank you, my friend. : ) I'm glad that my poem and I, were able to make you feel a bit better, somehow and someway. : ) Thank you so much, again and I will, my friend. ; )

on Sep. 17 2014 at 9:25 am
EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
81 articles 5 photos 1486 comments

Favorite Quote:
To love is to be vulnerable; Triumph is born out of struggle; We notice shadows most when they stand alone in the midst of overwhelming light.

Thank you. ^_^ I'm glad that you like it, and haha. I'm glad you like the last line too. Thank you so much, again!

on Sep. 17 2014 at 9:13 am
bewareofbunnyrabbits SILVER, Winona, Minnesota
8 articles 0 photos 86 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Empty yourself and let the universe fill you.&quot; -Yogi Tea

This is awesome. I especially like the last line.

on Sep. 15 2014 at 12:37 pm
Princess.Renda GOLD, Travelers Rest, South Carolina
14 articles 0 photos 159 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;All the world is made of faith, trust, and pixie dust.&quot; --J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan

It is almost scary how much I relate to this. You put into words how I felt before, so thanks you, it makes me feel a bit better reading this in a way :) Beautiful poem, keep writin', love ;)