We started out as buddies in elementary school.
Playing tug on the playground like little kids do,

Middle school came and we embraced the challenges.
We grew to be best friends.

High School came around very fast.
We had been friends for about four years. 

Meeting new faces.
Experiencing new things. 

You left me freshmen year.
I missed you although I was not allowed to tell you.

Loving another boy was a sin in gods eye.
Was I gay or would it all past.

I kept the feeling hidden so I would not get hurt.
I wanted you in my arms.

Sophomore year came. 
We watched our friends do drugs and party hard.
We were the ones who just laughed at their stupidity.

We ran out in the cold wearing  only our boxers. 
Nobody saw us or at least I hope not.

I was fighting my feelings every time I saw you.
They were growing stronger with every day that passed.
Every moment with you was the  greatest time spent.

The battle was killing me.
I wanted to be happy.

I knew I did not like women.
Was I disguising? 

I became a monster that nobody knew.
I changed over night from sweet to mean.

I hoped that everyone would love me when I told them the truth.
I feared though they would hate me so I never told them. 

I danced on a counter like a crazy man who had one to many beers. 
I fell down though but I did not have any mark.

I fell down though hard in real life.
Reaching my bottom.

Our last time spent together was at a movie.
Watching dead people roam the street on the big screen. 

Our last time spent together before everything fell apart.
A huge fight was the end that we never wanted to see.

You said a few things that I blew out of proportion.
I blamed you back then but now I would take it all back.

After our fight I lost everything.
Friends became pregnant.

The girls I had known were about to be mothers instead.
My whole since of security was being destroyed. 


The greatest moments now our only my memories.
I create new memories but with all different people now.