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Biting Paintbrushes.

February 18, 2015
By littlepiepschuim PLATINUM, Las Vegas, Nevada
littlepiepschuim PLATINUM, Las Vegas, Nevada
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Favorite Quote:
“You must stay drunk on writing so reality cannot destroy you.”
― Ray Bradbury
“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.”
― Maya Angelou
“There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed.”
― Ernest Hemingway


I’m going to paint you a picture,
As a cringe forms on my lips,
My paintbrush is a razor,
And my canvas is my hips.

And when my painting is finished,
And the paint is nearly dry,
I’ll wipe away the extra redness,
Just like I wipe hidden tears from my eye.

I can see the pain on your face,
When I show you what I meant by “picture”,
You want to look away,
But its color seems a fixture.

“I told you, you wouldn’t like it.”
I say in a choking whisper,
And as you turn away and fold your arms;
I can feel the silence blister.

“You told me you liked to paint.”
You tell me over your shoulder,
I see you looking at the jar in the corner:
My secret paintbrush holder.

I nod though you cannot see me,
And I pull my shirt back down,
I should’ve known you wouldn’t understand,
My red paint has turned me into a clown.

Suddenly you turn round and ask,
“What’s your reason for this?”
I notice you don’t say “excuse”,
So I say, “It’s like a bitter kiss,

The razor doesn’t hurt me,
As much as the words of others,
So when I paint my pictures,
It’s like a blanket that sort of helps to smother.”

“You need to stop,” you softly say,
As you gently take my hand,
I shake my head and whisper,
“I don’t think I can.”

You sigh and rub your arm,
Taking me in as a whole,
“I know it’s hard but you need to know,
It’s not impossible.”

“How would you know?” I ask bitterly,
As I stand there looking at you,
You roll up your sleeves and I take in your scars,
“I used to be a painter too.”


The author's comments:

This holds a lot of my past, and even more of my soul.


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