Everyone has this imagine of me that I'm suppose to be. I can't meet them all but why am i trying? This is my life my time and yet these imagines there not dying. I'm getting told to live my life the way i want it done. But then there's so many rules so many things i have to do. How can i be myself when i have to plaster on a smile and help everyone else. I have my own problems that keep controling me. I feel guilt and pain everyday mixed with love and happiness. Everything just keeps pulling on me and im just stuck. Looking in on a strangers world. When i look in the mirror i don't see the person I'm suppose to be. I see this girl who has no control. Auto polite activated. Smile work help smile hold back don't stop smile. How can i be me when I don't even know who me is?