Took a deep breath and swallowed my pride

No sense in trying to hide

I need help to make it through

Please don’t leave me, I begging you

I’m weak, my legs shake beneath the weight of self-hate

My pain drags me out and joy was the bait

Listening to the tender whisper of depression

Telling me to keep our relationship with discretion

The scorching flame of rage flickered wildly

The winds of change blew mildly

Forgetting how things felt, caused commotion

Adapting to new emotions

You think my love is delicate

My heart is desolate

Few things live there anymore

Fear, anger, and sadness at the core

If you're looking for damage you’ve hit the jackpot

An excessively see-through plot

Use me

Abuse me

Repeat.

But the kisses you give me after pain are sweet

Like ripe fruit, perfect at the time

But soon to be rotten after its prime

I swallowed my pride, took a deep breath