Silence was all that was needed
I was meant to take it all in and not complain
I forgot my place in life
I thought I deserved better, I was wrong

A bad egg from the beginning
I've ruined this family

I never knew what I wanted
And my indicision was my demise

She didn't know any better
Being human is a challenge
I was to help her but my selfishness got the best of me

She was wrong and I can ruined her
Though when she falls
What good could come out of it?

I hope she learns her mistake
Her first son died
If she doesn't change she'll lose her second son as well

The first born was a bad egg,
He ruined his family
His future
His life

The only people that could love him disowned him
Her first son is gone, her first son is me
I write with tears in my eyes,
Eyes that she won't meet
I wait for them to come
I am tired
Will they please put an end to this sad story

I alwasy thought I knew what would become of me
But from stupidity, they now hold my future in their hands

I've cried for so long that I foegot when the tears started
The streams of sadness stop and I can't shed another tear

I wish to srand tall and bold and say that I was strong
But to say this would be a lie
I'm broken with my spirit

Minutes passed and they don't show
My heart beats are numberd in this house
I drives me crazy, iy's all I hear
She's hurt and angry
I killed her along with myself

I'm a monster, my greed know no boundries
It hurts to breath
Stings to breath
Why can I change?

I used the blade though no blood was spilled
I know to well that this I must endure

When they show will I get one last good bye
Or will they wish for me o die

I am weakend, love made me human
But our love wasn't strong enough
It shows while she packs my things
It's not neccessary,
All I need to live is a mended heart

I lover and it's too late for sorry
They think that I'll hate her but it is me that I loath

How many tears before my pulse stops?
How many heartbeats without them can I stand?
My love is hate in life and in death
And my scatterd mind
A warzone of inside

Why was I born if a confused soul is my life?
The recess of my damaged mind, so dark and cruel
Not even I can fathom
Was that why we hurt each other?
Is the darkness in my soul too much for love to fight?

When will they come
Oh just take me now!
I can't stand my solitude
This prison of within
Arent my scars proof enough?

The sun shines bright as ever
Its rays abondon me as well

No water to heal what we already know
That death is the one that can end this nightmare of a story
ONly death can seperate the darkness from my soul

They're still not herte
Why aren't they taking me away
Is this my hell?
To wait and have her sarrow drown me?
Why can't I burn
Only your body dies,
Never your soul

I think it's time
The end is near
They're almost here, time to leave
Maybe then will this sad story can have a happy ending

Here's my good bye
I love you all though you'll never believe it
I thought you should know that
It's not a lie
But the truth before I die