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Contemplating and Agitating
Contemplating downing a whole bottle of pills to take the edge off
I'm looking hard for ways to bust my heart out.
Don't contest just let me complete the final test.
I dont want to be alive anymore,
I know that's dark but why am I going through the motions
Why am I never really there,
Why am I never aware of it?
I feel my head slipping away, I have lost my golden edge
I was once a hopeful kid
Now the toxicity just numbing my emotions
The autopsy just realizing I'm just messed up all around.
Had more fakes saying I ain't worth the time anymore
But the ones that hurt were the ones that used to be my friends
I feel betrayed by myself,
All because I can't contain the death in me.
I want to see the life god had planned for me,
But in all honesty I cant see the life I have now.
I can't force myself to making it another day anymore.
Its come to the point where I am begging.
Please someone come kill me.
I tried and failed, I'm to scared to do it gracefully.
I would do it sloppy like my life has been,
I am an evil one, I am petrified of me but I can't control me
Someone come save me. Someone come stop me.
I have no regard for my life anymore.
Just yesterday I flicked off a dude and he came to fight me
I almost said, "Why don't you just come and end me?"
"Why don't you offload your tool in me?"
I need help but that isn't for me. The demons are back again,
The same ones I will never beat. I let them take me.
I let them demons kill my soul.
They strangled me utill I was laying as still as a old man on his death bed.
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