Being normal, it must feel nice. To know that you are safe. I can scarcely remember what it feels like, that is how long I have been afraid. Tell me what it is like to wake up from a nightmare and feel safe and know it was only a dream, for I cannot remember that. I want to be able to wait and say, “Yes, finally sleep”; instead, I would rather die than go to sleep. However, why would I kill myself when I can just as easily be murdered in my own dreams and never wake up?

I want to wish for all the good dreams to be real, and be thankful that the nightmares are just a trick of the mind. Nevertheless, I do not want any of them to be real, because my dreams were stolen and replaced with nightmares. My life has become a living hell with nothing to hope for but death because of the pain and the unknown. Most of all I wish this could be the end; instead, it is only the beginning of my dangerous dreams.