The stars sparkled overhead, dancing above me. I lay back onto the damp, green grass and smiled up at them. A tear escaped my eye and I quickly swiped it away. I would not cry. Not tonight. Tonight, I will escape.
I rolled over onto my side and faced the broken street lamp across the way. I remember when it had once been bright with light. It used to light the way to my home. Now it was like me; broken and dark inside. I sighed. Was I ever going to find happiness?
I sat up and let black wisps of hair fall into my face. Another tear tried to sneak out but I squeezed my eyes shut; not letting the water break free. I rubbed my eyes and looked at the empty street. If I lay out there on my back, completely unprotected, would someone hurt me? I wondered if I had the guts to do it. I stood up and wiped my pants, attempting to clean off the grass stains. They wouldn’t come off. The stains would stay there on the outside and inside. I would never be clean again.
I buried my hands in my pockets and looked once more at the dancing stars. They urge me on. I walk slowly to the abandoned road. No one ever drives here at night. It’s dangerous to drive around the projects even during the day. I look both ways and take one step onto the unlit street. I look towards the sleeping houses. They all looked so broken. You wouldn’t think there’d be life inside.
I walked to the middle of the road and bent down to my knees. The loose rocks dug into my skin. I looked in front of me then turned and looked behind me. There was nothing. I lay down and closed my eyes. The road was cool against my exposed skin. I closed my eyes to the world and breathed in the air. I could hear a car honking in the distance. I knew a car was coming but I did not move. The car kept honking but I felt no fear. I could hear the engine now but still I felt no fear. I only felt relief for I knew that my time I had finally come. I would be free.