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Pushed
He leaned in to kiss her as she closed her eyes and whispered how in love she was.
 Me: “Lame!” 
 I plunge my hand into the bag of popcorn and grasp and handful in my tight fist. I force my elbow to bend and snap my forearm forward as I release the greasy snack. Each piece hits the screen at a different spot leaving behind a buttery residue. I begin to feel dizzy from lying upside down so I lift myself evenly onto my bed.
 I stared at my ceiling making creatures out of the bumps that coated the surface. I clicked the tips of my shoes to the beat of the made up song I was humming. I didn’t pause when I heard the footsteps creep as they approached my room and enter.
 Mom: “What are you doing?”
 Me: “I have no idea.”
 Mom: “Did you throw popcorn at you television again?”
 Me: “Yup”
 Mom: “Why?”
 Me: “It’s offensive that my youth is filled clichés.”
 Mom: “Well, you should probably go outside. Get some sun. It’s not healthy to be inside so much.”
 I turn to her, wondering how someone so weird (me) could have been birthed from someone so normal (Mom). I sigh, showing her that I’m contemplating. I leap from my bed.
 Me: SIR YES SIR.
 I give her a salute then march forward grabbing my glasses and black and white striped jacket.
 I pound down the stairs and reach for the doorknob.
 Dad: “What are you doing?”
 He’s in the kitchen. I about-face to where he can see me.
 Me: “Mom says I need a life.”
 He chuckles.
 Dad: “Good luck with that.”
 I pull an imaginary hat from my head.
 Me: “I bid you adieu.”
 I swing the door open with extra force and bow before fully exiting.
 I tug the jacket over my arms, shove the square frames onto my face, and pull the hood onto my head. I grab the bike that’s resting against the side of our house. I pedal down the driveway and move down the street. The wind steals the hood from my head and my hair goes everywhere. I piece gets stuck in my mouth. I spit and move my tongue in attempt to get rid of it put it remains glued. I don’t think as I remove my hand from the handle bar and tug at my hair. I lose my balance temporarily and the bicycle shakes. I recover quickly as I progress to my destination. I hop off and stumble towards the door.
 I knock a quick rhythm and wait for it to be answered. Charlie’s mom, a short and sweet woman, gently opens the door. She smiles at me. I’ve been here a million times.
 Charlie’s Mom: “Maybe you can get him up. He’s in his room.”
 Me: “Thanks.”
 She moves aside and lets me in. I glide up the stairs and move down the familiar hall until I reach his room. I quietly turn the knob and push the door open. He’s scattered across his bed and is dead asleep. I exhale just before taking a running start and landing on his bed, not caring if I hit him or not. He jolts awake, sits up and looks at me.
 Charlie: “I hate you. So much. Right now.”
 I sit Indian style on the bed.
 Me: “We need lives.
 Charlie: “You need more friends.”
 I lean back and forget that there isn’t any wall to lean back on and tumble on the ground. I erupt with laughter as Charlie’s head appears looking down on me from the bed. I laugh more until he smiles. 
 Me: “You need to stop being so serious.”
 Charlie: “I’m not serious. You’re just insane.”
 Me: “You promise?” 
 He smiles broader. I rise to my feet
 Me: “Let’s go make some shenanigans.”
 Charlie: “How?”
 Me: “Rob a bank? Drink illegally? Discover a new gateway drug?”
 Charlie: “Sounds like a plan.”
 I close the door as I leave the room and wait in the hallway. I tap my foot against the light brown carpet.
 Charlie comes out of his room.
 Charlie: “Having fun.”
 Me: “Straight up.”
 We step down the stairs in perfect rhythm. Charlie says a quick goodbye to his mom. He retrieves his bike from his garage. We start down the street.
 Charlie: “Where are we going?”
 Me: “I haven’t decided.”
 We pedal in silence for a while. I hate silence. So I started to hum. Humming isn’t enough. 
 Me: “It’s 9 o’ clock on a Saturday, the regular crowd shuffles in. There’s an old man sittin’ next to me. Makin’ love to his tonic and gin.”
 I don’t hear it but I know Charlie is laughing.
 Charlie: “What are you doing?”
 I ignore him.
 Me: “He says ‘Son will you play me a memory? I’m not really sure how it goes but, it’s sad and it’s sweet and I knew it complete when I wore a younger man’s clothes.”
 We both took a deep breath and continued together.
 Charlie and Me: “Sing us a song, you're the piano man. Sing us a song tonight. Well, we’re all in the mode for a melody and, you’ve got us feelin’ alright.”
 We sing the rest as we travel through town. It’s sunny but there aren’t many people outside. I steer us towards an old road. Charlie doesn’t ask any question but, I know he’s wondering where we are going. We keep riding until we reach an old tree house.
 I slide off my bike and guide it next to a tree. I find the rope ladder that I know is there. Charlie copies me and one after another climb the old ladder and step onto the rotting wood. I sit on the edge and he plops down next to me.
 Me: “I wish everyday could be like this.”
 Charlie: “Like what?”
 Me: “Memorable.”
 Charlie: “Why can’t it be?”
 Me: “Because it isn’t real.”
 Tears stream down my face, in dream and reality.
 I pull myself from the fantasy into my real life. I’m sweating all over, I feel my hair knotted up and, I’m exhausted. 
 My mom rushes in and presses a cold hand to my forehead. She pushes the hair away from my face. 
 Mom: “Did you have another one?”
 I nod. I’ve been having these dreams for months. She lets out a sympathetic sigh. 
 Me: “It’s my fault.”
 Mom: “He fell out of a tree house, honey. How can that be your fault?”
 I start to shake.
 Me: “Because. I pushed him.”

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