It’s funny when you call that one girl disgusting and ugly when you would do anything to be her. How your eyes dart towards her searching for any flaws when there aren't any. How you mock her, make fun of her, laugh at her but really you’re just jealous. 

I think all of us have gone through this, unless you’re that girl that I'm talking about. 

Everytime I stared at her perfect smile, her perfect cheeks, her perfect eyes I thought I was going to throw up. The way everything came so effortlessly to her was the absolute worst. I hated her but was obsessed with her at the same time. How I longed for someone to bring her up so I could talk about her more. 

Perhaps you think this is normal and everyone goes through this. I thought that too, until I started to dress like her, talk like her, imagine I was her. Until it got to my head and I went too far, Until i became her.