You step into the world aimless, lost,and you don't know who you are. You're a girl, a woman but those words are so loaded you're always afraid you're doing it wrong. As a woman your body is inherently sexual, and you're inherently sexualized. People will assume you know less because of what you look like or how you dress. They will assume you don't know how to do things because of how you talk. But you must remain grateful and graceful, or you'll lose the inherent beauty that comes with being a woman, but you'll never lose the feelings of being lost being told there's always something you're doing wrong.

Your girlhood was never pretty it was always broken and cracked. It's was dollar store makeup compact hidden from your mom. Applied in the school mirror. It was when anxiety has no name but shame on the floor. Girlhood was wishing for things to change. Maybe in some ways womanhood is the same.