I realize why I am so angry here
I realize why I hurt every time he speaks 

I realize why things will never change 

I finally realize why I feel weak

He’s a mess that will never get cleaned 

A loud noise that will never be quiet 

And an empty room that will always echo in my head 

His words are sharp knives cutting in deep 

Wrapped in a shell, he’s faint-hearted

He was made small minded  

It’s sad I can’t say I know him in ways that are good 

But I can say that its good I know the bad 

I know the hurt

I know the disappointment 

I know the hatred 

And I know he will never breathe with a gentle heart 

But that’s just my life;

A mess with him in it 

I won’t ever love this mess I live in 

But I love the feeling of trying to clean it all up 

No matter the tears

No matter the cruel words 

No matter the bitterness 

And no matter the ache in my chest  

Finally, I have realized 

With my faith and my loving heart,

I will always live in forgiveness