They say you have to love yourself before

You can love someone else.

I say, thats complete bull-

sitting on the realization 

that loving you made me forget

just how much I couldn't stand

my own company.

My own company that sells self doubt, and 

food for thought.

Thoughts of deprecation and loathing

loading my brain but 

You.

You washed it away when you

ran your hands through my hair,

like a rake clearing a lawn

of litter and dead

broken leaves.

You washed it away like the 

makeup on my face 

you wiped clean

when I was too tired to 

take care of it myself.

You washed it away like the 

sea caresses the shore-

whisking away the sand,

and replacing it with delicate shells

I collect. Carefully carrying them 

into the safety of my pockets.

Where I'll forget about them until

I find the hidden treasures

that bring a smile to my face.

When ‘X’ marks the spot

the spot on my face

where you kissed

my tears away

after that fight with my mom.

The spot on my face you told me you loved

after I had spent the last hour having a staring contest

with it in the mirror.

The spot on my neck that still smells like you

when I stole your cologne.

All of the spots you leave

when your touches

burn into my skin,

as the sun kisses down on the earth-

just like your smile warms my life.

My life that wouldn't be the same without you,

you who carries the warmth of the sun, 

but the beauty of the stars in the sky,

and who I can trust like the moon.

You who made me who I am today.

You could break every bone in my body, 

and my teeth would still smile at you.

You could destroy the earth and I’d still make sure

to stop its rotation if you got too dizzy.

I know I’m dizzy when I try to

watch you with my eyes,

but keep you in my mind.

I'll never lose you in my head.