You knock all the

wind out of

me again, just like

i remembered.

You have a delicate fabric that could

tear with

a touch

my thoughts begin rushing and

body begins numbing

eyes  burning

sirens wailing

colors catch my racing

pulse—the only reminder of

being alive.

Heartbeat in

sync with

dizzy azure and

crimson

i forget the meaning of air as the

thick velcro straps my head

down on the bed and it

tightens around

the rest of my

frosted bones

afraid of my

inability to control

while they tell me

hold on we’re almost there, almost

like the rain owes me an apology because

let me tell you

i am afraid

to wear ashes like

perfume