I want
the bite
of cold steel
against my skin

I want
to release
this dark lust
from my body

I want
to forget
these mamories
in pain

I want
to feel
the blood pouring
out of me

I want
to struggle
to stay
concious

I want
to not
remember
our past

our past...
so beautifully
perfect
our love
so wonderfully
comforting
your kiss
so warmingly
tender

I want
to lock up
these emotions
that kill me
so I may live again

for now
I am only
a zombie
a slave
because
I can't
get out
of the past

our past
filled with
hugs
touches
smiles
all heartbreaking
now

I really wish
I could
make this feeling
of loss
lonliness
abandonment
go away
but I can't.

Thats why

I want
to die
so I may
forget about you.