If I took off my armor,
You would really see,
The girl that is inside,
Longing to be free.

She puts on a tough face,
And stands up nice and tall,
But do you even know,
That she's about to fall?

All along I've said,
That I will be okay,
But what about the times,
When my skies feel so grey?

You didn't think it could happen?
You thought I'd been fixed?
Well the truth is,
I had you all tricked.

Opening up now,
Is so hard to do.
You thought that I was happy,
Because of, "I love you."

Yes, he makes me happy,
And yes, he makes me smile.
He even makes
My days worthwhile.

But deep down inside,
Sometimes I still feel cracked,
Please don't stomp around my heart,
Because the cards are stacked.

Hey, guess what,
I lost a friend this year.
I bet she doesn't know,
It made me shed some tears.

She probably thinks I'm heartless,
Cold, unforgiving and cruel.
Seriously? To think that,
You'd have to be a fool.

Yes, it broke my heart,
It shook me deep, deep down.
But I'll never let her see
My perpetual frown.

Why should she be different
Than everybody else?
No one else has gotten to see
The things left on my shelf.

The shelf I have kept hidden,
Deep inside my heart.
Buried behind old memories
That have been there from the start.

I think the safest way to live,
Is just to keep them there.
No one really wants to know,
No one really cares.

So, I said all of this,
Just to let you know,
That there is only one person,
Who really, really knows.

The rest of you think
You've got me figured out.
I like it that way,
Because that's my way out.


12/31/11