don’t understand why my father left
I don’t understand why he left his 2 sons like this
I don’t understand why he doesn’t want us back
I don’t understand why he doesn’t even call to see how we are
I don’t understand why he doesn’t help me become a man
I don’t understand why I try to be with him, if it doesn’t even work
I don’t understand why I still care about him
I don’t understand why I still look up to him
I don’t understand why I still call him my hero because he hadn’t done anything
I don’t understand why I still love him
I don’t understand why at my age I need some one like him no matter how much pain he had left
But most of all I don’t understand why I don’t have my father
I do understand that some fathers don’t care about their kids and let them grow up by themselves. Just like me. Learning from my own mistakes
Trying to be the man for my family.
School, work, homework, chores is all I do everyday.
Trying to manage my days to succeed because I have no one to look up.
I’m surprised I hadn’t been locked up
I been dealing with so many challenges
That’s why in me there are being changes
But I don’t understand why I keep waiting for that call
I don’t understand why I wait that call from my father
I don’t understand why I still hadn’t received that call
I don’t understand why tears came out from my eyes like an overflowing river
I don’t understand why they shine like a diamond
I don’t understand why they dripped down in all of his expression
I don’t understand why I’m still writing
I understand most of all this is the healing part
Because I seen so many friends come and go
Few made it alive but paralyzed at the hospital
Everyday I graduate
Graduate from the streets
Because you don’t know when is your last day
Faced death so many ****** times
But I’m still here
Yeah with scars on my body from fights
But each of them tell a story
A story from a experience
Hoping many friends don’t fall what I been through
Because they might not be strong as me
I fought my way up and im not falling back down
Im not going to waste everything I gained