I stare into a mirror as my reflection begins to disappear
It twists and it turns
It's beginning to morph
Morph into my biggest fear
I can't look away and can't run or hide
As it draws me near and I scream with tears

I bang my head and watch the blood drip down along my body
I begin to swim in a sea of red
As my mind goes numb and red turns to black

I don't know anything
Who I was
Who I am
Where I am
Where I'm going
It's all a blur
It's all forgotten

Who i it that I stare at and ponder
Is it a ghost
An angel
A Demond?

I don't know anymore as i sit in silence
Silence engulfs me and fills me with violence

I have with me a vile, but which shall I choose
For I know already who my victim will be
And soon it will all be Over
And soon it will all be Better

Pill popping
Drugs racing and coursing through my veins
A rope is hanging right above my head
But this knife that's in my hand would make perfect slits for my hands

So as I sit and ponder
I write out a letter
Which I fold and fold
Making it smaller
Trying to make it disappear
Yet it stays complete and destroys me
Left on my bedside table

For mother to read in the morning