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I Am an Empty Spool

January 4, 2014
By elenal GOLD, Stanford, California
elenal GOLD, Stanford, California
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Favorite Quote:
"When life gives you 100 reasons to cry, show life you have 1,000 reasons to smile."


I am an empty spool
Of yarn all spun out
The last piece plucked
So fast it felt slow
The words I have
I shared with you but
Now
There’s no one to hear them
Be strong
Be brave
But how
When this could be the beginning
Of the end
An end that I really don’t want
I am lost
And broken
An empty spool with no more yarn
Left to be spun
Just one piece that connects
From me to you
But it is so frail and thin
I can feel it being pulled
Further and further
As you walk further and further
Away from me
I want to grab your hand and
Pull you back so close
We can feel our hearts beating
I want to kiss you
Tell you that I can help
I want to help
I want to be there
I want to scream that
This can become permanent
The pulling apart can become permanent
But you don’t want that
No help
No me
Just you
And I have to be okay with that
I never thought I’d be
An empty spool
You say it’s temporary
But that word has such a range
Months apart now turn into
Months of silence
I am an empty spool
Broken
Crushed heart
Crushed soul
We were okay
I thought so but
I was wrong
I’m getting pushed away
Without a reason
Which leaves me hurt
I’ve had a break before and
It turned into permanent
I was okay with that
But permanent with you?
I don’t want that
I want to love you
And to be loved by you
I don’t get it
I’m lost
Confused
Broken
So
F***ing
Broken
An empty spool
An empty spool
An empty spool
A f***ing empty
Broken
Spool
I hope you come back to me
I want you to come back to me
I have this feeling that you won’t
That you’ll break it off for good
And I’ll just have to be okay with that
Okay with being an empty spool
For quite a while longer


The author's comments:
My girlfriend said she needed to take a break from our relationship to deal with some issues about herself. She didn't explain further and says it won't take long and that she still loves me and wants to be with me. I wrote this because there is just so much emotion bubbling up inside of me and I needed to let it out

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