I say I’m a Christian
I go to church
I pray

I know I believe
What the Bible says
I’ve been baptized
and I try to follow the laws

But something is missing,
a part that’s not there
Something crucial
I can tell

I listen to stories
of people with hard lives
doubting God was there
going through strife

But my life’s not like that,
It’s actually pretty good,
I believe wholeheartedly
at least,
I thought I did.

Then I realized,
what about the love?
where’s the proof,
that I loved?

What would they say,
if I died right now.
Would they morn
and then get on with their lives
like nothing had happened?
Would they rejoice?

I look around me,
at my family, my life.
Every time I meet someone
I have a chance to change their life.
They could change mine

Then with a sinking feeling
I come to find,
My heart has hardened,
And I don’t really care

So with trembling fingers
I reach for my Bible
opening up
to a Psalm

Tears blur my vision
as I start to read
dropping on the fragile page