if only you knew exactly what you put me through,

the thoughts and emotions that race through my mind

it's like a thunderstorm pouring its heart out to the ocean

it's overwhelming, too much for one to handle.

you constantly walk in and out of my life

never giving me the chance to fully express myself

you say that you're scared of falling for me

yet you're not the one falling?

i lay deep in thought and i begin to conversate with myself,

"why are you doing this to yourself

you know she is just going to leave again

it's only a matter of time before she does,"

but then i say, "maybe it's different this time, what if she really wants to stick around?"

days past and you begin to grow distant

and my mind is screaming at me saying

"you see, she's ready to give up on you just like before"

i tell him to put a sock in it and let me think

wait, this can't be right.

it's been weeks since i've heard from you

not one text nor phone call.

i cannot believe what im seeing

you're leaving me again and i don't fully understand

i told you i love you and you pack up and leave

like a thief in the night.

i loved you and i would've done anything for you

you were my everything and i just can't believe you

out of everyone, you, would do this to me?

why?

im losing my mind

i can't sleep or think straight

i wait by the phone for a simple text or phone call and like rain in the desert, you never reply

insanity is my new friend

but then i say, "screw it all im going to live my life with or without you"

and you begin to fade from my memories

until one day you call me crying saying how much you've missed me

and all that was forgotten,

starts up again.