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Knowing Nothing of This ’Til Then MAG

January 28, 2009
By Edye Pucciarelli SILVER, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
Edye Pucciarelli SILVER, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
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I was younger then, but only by months.
Curiosity settled unbearably throughout my limbs
And I waited
Patiently for you to carry yourself down wooden stairs
Rightleftright – my ear against olive-colored carpet
To make sure that coast was clear
Hands resting on hinge of drawer and pulling
I reached inside, ransacked and shifted through its contents
And uncovered your thoughts in journal form (success)
I remembered then how embarrassment
Burnt my cheeks red
Everything you said when you found the
Monster I had hidden in the sheets beneath my bed
And I recalled your tears
The shape your body took, fetally curled
With your knees against your chest
You wept endlessly.
Fearing flood or revenge
I tossed and turned that night, grasping the fact
That I had failed you and again –
When I opened that leather cover and divulged
Your evenly spaced print to my eyes and that entry
I had watched you record on blue printed lines
Night prior, before dark, before saying
“Sharpen this, please!” in an angry tone
From across the hall and again –
With a clean-cut graphite tip you wrote
“October twenty-second …”
In the uppermost corner and proceeded with
“My Journal, I have never felt so alone …”

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a_essie BRONZE said...
on Sep. 29 2010 at 8:50 pm
a_essie BRONZE, St. Louis, Missouri
2 articles 0 photos 22 comments

Favorite Quote:
Fairy Tales are more than true: not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten. --G.K. Chesteron

"My journal, I have never felt so alone..." I love this piece!

on Sep. 29 2010 at 5:04 pm
This poem is gripping and mysterious. I LOVE IT! 

on Sep. 29 2010 at 2:02 pm
jillianatthedisco SILVER, Kalamazoo, Michigan
7 articles 0 photos 11 comments

Favorite Quote:
"People say nothing is impossible, but I do nothing every day!" -Winnie the Pooh

Are you REALLY insulting this?

I'd like to see you try and come up with something as well-written and breathtaking as this.

And if you DO feel the need to say something negative in the future, don't.

123456789 said...
on Sep. 29 2010 at 9:36 am
this suckz

on Sep. 29 2010 at 9:30 am
xcrunner4life, Bruceton Mills, West Virginia
0 articles 0 photos 2 comments

Favorite Quote:
LIVE LAUGH!! psh forget the love part who needs it!! lol

I almost always forget how bad some people have it out in the world and this peom really reminded me. If this story is true i am soo sorry for you and your sister. I know from my own exprence it can be very hard when you are so mad at the person you always turn to . You feel so alone and just want to talk to someone about it but thereis no one there. I hope you and your sister deal witht this hard time well and i hope eveything turns out ok.

paperflowers said...
on Sep. 29 2010 at 7:10 am
paperflowers, Imaginary, Indiana
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I finally understand what this is about! I accidentally read my sister's diary the other day. I thought she was using one of my old notebooks (that I tore the pages I used out of) as a story book or something, and she was showing me a little stupid story that I wrote when I was little and I looked at the other page and read like one sentence and then realized that my sister was venting about what our mom said to her.... she is as emotional as I am, and she's only 7, and I'm very, very emotional, so I'm definitely going to try to keep an eye on her... except I'll be in college when she's a teenager. ugh. maybe I'll go to a nearby one....

on Sep. 29 2010 at 6:45 am
DaydreamBeliever GOLD, Lockport, Other
15 articles 4 photos 140 comments

Favorite Quote:
If you live to be one hundred, I want to live to be one hundred minus one day, so that I'll never have to live without you. -Winnie the Pooh

aw :(

really really good :)

on Sep. 29 2010 at 6:27 am
taintedannex GOLD, Hong Kong, Other
15 articles 5 photos 166 comments

Favorite Quote:
The truth is that at some point, everyone's going to hurt you. You just have to decide who's worth the pain.

Some say having something to lose is what makes you vulnerable. I believe that having something to lose only makes you stronger.

Simply stunning. 

TuffGurl said...
on Sep. 29 2010 at 5:52 am
p.s.: really liked the poem (the writing was really good).

TuffGurl said...
on Sep. 29 2010 at 5:51 am
I have the feeling the other person is her brother, so bear with me: what is wrong with him? does he have depression?

jeanwolf GOLD said...
on Sep. 29 2010 at 4:17 am
jeanwolf GOLD, Lodi, California
14 articles 11 photos 37 comments

Favorite Quote:
Eternity is forever, falsehood is a never

very good!!! loved it!!

look at some of my work plez!!

on Sep. 25 2010 at 4:27 pm
SaMiLoVe97 SILVER, Okawville, Illinois
9 articles 3 photos 105 comments

Favorite Quote:
If it doesnt break your heart it isnt love, if it doesnt break your heart its not enough. Its when youre breaking down with your insides coming out.Thats when you learn what youre made of.-Switchfoot<3

Great imagery. I loved this. Kepp writin'(:

                               <3 sami

on Sep. 14 2010 at 6:59 pm
Gothgirl BRONZE, Thomasville, North Carolina
4 articles 0 photos 9 comments

Favorite Quote:
"The one you love hurts you the most."

Wow. That is deep.

on Sep. 12 2010 at 4:13 pm
Marlyre PLATINUM, Kalamazoo, Michigan
21 articles 0 photos 208 comments

Favorite Quote:
"when you cry, do you waste your tears?" Madonna

the acceleration in this piece was incredible... read some of mine?

loverlover said...
on Sep. 12 2010 at 3:15 pm
i loved it because it was deep anad it is someing i will read everyday i loved it that much.

on Sep. 7 2010 at 8:14 pm
maggiebar1 GOLD, Valparaiso, Indiana
12 articles 1 photo 49 comments
wow this was really good... your imagery was amazing. could you comment on some of my stuff? id really love advice! :)

on Sep. 7 2010 at 5:10 pm
WaterGirl23 BRONZE, Nutley, New Jersey
4 articles 5 photos 47 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them." -William Shakespeare

love this! i can feel the emotion easily. could you please rate and comment some of my work? thanks!

on Sep. 7 2010 at 4:22 pm
Hummingbird GOLD, Berryton, Kansas
16 articles 0 photos 56 comments

Favorite Quote:
Life is either a daring adventure or nothing. -Helen Keller

Absolutely stunning. I don't know how else to say it. I can feel the emotion, the deepness, the darkness, the sadness. You have a gift.

on Sep. 7 2010 at 3:10 pm
meganwagner21 PLATINUM, Old Bridge, New Jersey
42 articles 0 photos 139 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Sometimes good things have to fall apart so better things can fall together." -Marilyn Monroe
"Nobody can go back and make a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending." -Maria Robinson

wow...i am jst blown away from the raw emotion put into this. incredible job. 5 stars

on Sep. 7 2010 at 2:51 pm
pinkypromise23 PLATINUM, Cranston, Rhode Island
30 articles 0 photos 412 comments

Favorite Quote:
i know that you believe you understand what you think i said, but im not sure you realize that what you heard is not what i meant.

i had to read it a couple times to understand it...but it was really good(: 5 stars(: