Ok, so I mmmmmaaaayyy have copied this idea from someone else on teenink, but I just thought it was very cool. I am struggling from depression and anxiety, and currently no one knows. I am planning to tell someone, but the thought of therapy is holding me back: too scary. Instead, I decided to try and get through it myself. I know it won't be easy, but I WILL get through this. So, here are my 50 reasons to live:

1. I have a whole life ahead of me

2. I want to see if I can become a best-selling author

3. I want to help animals when I'm older

4. I'm no use to anyone dead

5. I'm smart

6. I've never experienced love and, depite everything I say, I really want to

7. I need to be there for Bea's funeral

8. I want to tease my friends about crushes

9. I want to say sorry to Joe

10. I want to do something good in pe for once

11. Maybe I could try a whole day of happy thoughts

12. Suicide is a long term solution for a short term problem

13. There are so many amazing aspects of life

14. I want to spend more time with my guinea pigs

15. Who will give my dog Monty love, hugs and treats?
16. Things will look up

17. Even though things are hard, I still have great moments which I wouldn't want to miss

18. My friends are great

19. My family are caring

20. Suicide is selfish and stupid

21. Death seems even more depressing than life

22. I really need to finish writing this book

23. I want to see my little brother grow up

24. I'm still young

25. These are supposed to be the best years of my life, so I've got to live them

26. I want to have my first proper drink and come home dizzy, yet still laughing

27. People would miss me

28. I have so much potential

29. I NEEEEEEDDDD to start an animal sanctuary when I'm older

30. Who knows? I could have a family when I grow up

31. I need to know if I actually do get prettier when I'm older

32. I may be healing

33. I need to know if that boy actually likes me......

34. Missing going to prom with my friends would be terrible

35. I could get my own place when I'm older!!!

36. I need to triumph over the depression, and experience that amazing feeling at the end

37. People will grieve over me and probably not get over it quickly (they need to get on with their lives)

38. I need to read the end of this book to see if the characters really do like each other (lesbians forever!)

39. I want to go to a water park

40. I want to go on scary rides with my younger sister (whose never been on them before)

41. There is no reason I should die, this depression has no real cause

42. I don't believe in an afterlife

43. I want hot chocolate again

44. I need to spend more bonding time with people

45. There is so much to love about the Earth

46. I could do great things

47. I need to be there when my book gets published, and to actually be able to hold it and know it is there from my own work and dedication

48. I need to try out more stuff

49. I'm only just starting to appreciate the world, I can't stop now

50. My birthday is coming up soon

The fact that I had 50 ideas to live, no matter how simple, are enough. There are so many reasons I should live. I hope you guys realise that about yourselves as well.