is ebony tears falling with my phone

Something is different

and I thought nothing was wrong

until I was told that

nothing is wrong

with me

I have two choices

hang up or fall apart

This was supposed to be fun

and with her it is

with her I felt the lightest

as I held her hand

and could feel her watching

but couldn’t watch back

I knew if I saw her eyes

my own would crystallize

as I thought about leaving

and wished I’d spend the final night

sitting in her bed

like I used to

and how she said she’d never kissed

the moment I thought about it

with my tear-drenched lips

that she didn’t deserve

I was silent

I am sorry

I don’t know me

but I know her

and the way she quickened my heart

as my lungs were recovering

from her cutting my breath

and how she’d ask why I’m staring

It’s only because whenever I saw her

I thought all these things over again