There are some things I
would
never
tell
anyone...
Yet the weight of them is crushing me inside.
I’m so lost and confused .
I’ve been listening to what other people say for so long
That my thoughts,
and the opinions of others,
are all just one big muddle inside my head.
I’m never quite sure of myself
And, sometimes, when I smile it doesn’t reach my eyes…
I love so many people
But…
I fear that they do not love me back
I’m afraid that waiting will make him leave
And I’m afraid to disappoint God…
What my heart tells me
and what my religious leaders tell me
Are
Two
Completely
Different
Things.
I am sure of myself but I fear that others aren’t sure of me.
I thought I knew her well enough but when she told me the truth I realized how very ignorant I was.
I’m afraid that no boy would ever love someone like me.
Some days I feel like such a failure…
I am so cowardly, Jesus died for me
And I can’t even raise my voice
Against what I believe is false preaching of the Gospel.
Why can’t everything be easy again?
Everything

Is

Changing…