There are so many things I wish that you would know.
So many words I need your ears to hear.
I don't want you to leave, don't want you to go.
But I have a fear of having you here.

A million memories I need to forget,
With pain wander through my brain..
So many things that I regret.
drive me insane in a way not possible to explain.

Calming this guest ache inside my chest
with lovely songs that you alone have composed.
Is what puts my pain to rest by far the best.
without leaving my fears too exposed.

There's no gain in blaming you for the pain.
Can't blame you for my agony.
But in my insane heart still lies the stain,
That you caused with your apathy

High with pretend cocaine
I'm sniffin' fake heroin
Drunk with non-alcoholic pain
My mind goin' on 'bout my sufferin'.

In my head, easy to say I'm dying ev'ry day.
Walking. not caring if I'm alive.
I make you pay not hearing what you have to say,
And cut you out of my life.

I push you out, I shut the door.
Proudly far from kind, leaving you behind.
But I get a pain I can't ignore.
Again I find I've changed my mind.

Filled with success here you are so clueless,
Making me feel weak.
Unaware of all the mess I sadly posses
And that you've caused in me so deep.


I see that you're forgetting me
I know that I've already lost you.
For me, so simple and easy to see.
But as for you, you have no clue.


No clue that I've lost hope in you.
No idea of this disappointment hanging over me.
Don't know of all you made me go through
Don't realize I agree that you're not good for me.

I wouldn't survive a life apart from you,
Now that I know of the ride of being by your side
So I wish I'd never met you.
If I only died just to revive

Just to revive and feel alive, be purified and satisfised.
Never meeting you, or your pain or your love
Perfect, but my pride's too high to commit suicide.
And if I wait, I'll be above.

Above the sky.
Above the moon
Above the high of sayin bye
I'm glad that I won't see you soon
In the heavens after I die.

I'll finally forget you and manage to go on.
Painless, careless, with no stress
I'll manage to be gone.

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