You smile at me
As if nothing happened
But I feel it in the silence
Nothing can change what you did
Six weeks can't change how I feel
A gaping hole opens between us
Threatening to swallow us whole
You've got it under control
You side step, laughing
I trip and fall in
Darkness overcomes me
The memories flicker through my mind
For what seems like the thousandth time
I'm not really breathing
Shivering from the icy chill of abandonment
Gasping from the shock of the quick downward slope
When you told me
We could just be friends
Pulled out of the whole
I look into his eyes
It was not you but him
That picked me up when I had fallen
Of course I fell again
Fell for him tat is
Fickle boy he is though
Like following a blind sheep
Through a herd of wolves
A sheep, not only blinded by false pretenses
But willing to befriend the wolves
Not too soon before he is snatched up
And thrown back just as quickly
For a second he sees me
Then wanders off again
Same blind sheep
At a loss
I look left and right
Boy to my left
Boy to my right
You stand in front of me
Obscuring my view
I really do hate you
Almost as much as I love you