I wasn’t ready for you to go.
I wasn’t ready for you to leave me here alone.
You’re still needed here
you can’t really be gone.
Why now?
Why would you abandoned me?
Couldn’t you have held on?
For years?
Forever?
For me?
I still see you everywhere
In the roads we used to drive.
In the choices that I make.
In my memory, where you’ll always live
I’m not ready to let you go.
I’m not ready to say goodbye.

Confined in this nightmare.
I would give anything for one more day,
one more chance to hold you and say the things I never did.
I’d give it all to see you again.
Not a day passes that I don’t think about you,
and the ache never dulls
Not a day passes that I don’t wish you were here
still here, with me.
My heart shattered when you left,
taking a piece of me with you.
Leaving me to pick up the remains.
Leaving me broken and alone.

I can’t do this without you
I can’t keep going on like this.
How could you do this to me?
No one knows about the tears I’ve shed
No one knows about the pain hidden inside.
I put on the brave face
like I know you’d want me to.
But I can’t hold it up for much longer
The facade is cracking
Falling apart without you

Outside, I try to keep going
I try to seem fine
But inside, underneath the lies,
I’m raging
screaming in anger and pain
I need you back
I need you to never go.
These feeling I’ve tried to keep hidden
won’t stay buried for long
I can feel it
building up without you here to calm it down.
Like a tempest brewing inside.
Without you, all is pain and torment.
Without you, all is coldness and despair
And all of that damage,
all of that hurt,
is trapped inside
it won’t stop for anything but you.
It won’t stop now.

I am Audra.
I am the storm.