I feel sick.
My stomach is churning
And my face is burning
And I’m running away
From something

Something I cannot identify
That tears at my soul and mind
That captures the very essence
Of my being
And puts it in a jar

And now that jar won’t open
And I’m sick because I’m scared
Of the time I will spend twisting
Using up
The only air I have

And my world is circling
Because, I feel sick.
And there is no control
Behind this naked divide
Of nature and mind

And I can’t breathe
And I can’t see
But my heart is racing
And I am more alive
Than I have ever been, before

But I feel sick.
Because my heart is hurting
Because I cannot stop these tears
And of every year I worked so hard
There is nothing now

I feel that if I hurled
The thoughts and fears inside of me
They would not find a way to return
But the me I am now would be lost
My mind would have no hope of returning

So please
The answer is that
I FEEL SICK
And my world is not okay
And my heart will never heal

I feel sick.
And there is no cure
For a disease
That does not
And never will
Exist.