I close my eyes and fall into the deep dark abyss. 

I picture the ocean with its every moving water. 

The water welcomes me.

Asks me to take a swim. 

I oblige, and walk until my knees are submerged. 

I look down and see the clear water, so peaceful it is.

I keep walking until my shoulders are submerged.

I let the water sway me, left and right.

I become one with the water. 

I let all my thoughts fade away with the ocean's calming motions.

I look up at the sky and see the darkness above. 

The darkness calls me back to reality.

Reality is the place of my nightmares.

It is the place where I am suffocated.

It is the place where I wish I could escape from. 

My fears wait for me in reality.

So I ignore its calls. 

I sink further into the water.

Letting it take me away.

Hoping it brings me to a place of peace. 

My head sinks underwater, I open my eyes and look around.

I see the golden sand.

The dark corals swaying with the motions of the ocean. 

I see the small fishes, so calm they are.

They tell me to close my eyes, and take a deep breath. 

I listen to them, I close my eyes, and take a deep breath.

The water fills my lungs, as the ocean rocks my body.

I am calm and at peace.

I don't struggle as it becomes harder to breathe.

I don't try to make my way to the top of the water.

I relax and as I slowly feel myself drowning.

A thought comes to my previously empty mind.

“I am finally free”

A smile spreads across my palling face.

My body starts to go numb from lack of oxygen.

I don't panic, even though there are only a couple of moments left. 

As I take my last breath, I let the water rock me to sleep.