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The Color Of The Inside Of My Mouth MAG

January 22, 2009
By Bassoonkelley GOLD, Tampa, Florida
Bassoonkelley GOLD, Tampa, Florida
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I wipe at my stupid eyes with the back of my hand, and it startles me for a second that my tears are gray. I dunno why it surprised me; I mean, I buy the s***ty mascara that’s $1.99 in the 20 Items or Less checkout lane. Why spend oodles of green on something I hardly ever use?

I just wanted to look nice, you know? Like those girls who’re just naturally fake pretty. The girls who can blend shades of eyeshadow like no one’s business, and match their lipstick to the exact color of their toenail polish or whatever. Seemingly effortless, yet impeccably coordinated.

This is good stuff, I should write for a living – solely on the subject of beauty queens with superiority complexes, of course.

I just want … God, what do I want? I want to feel the sun on my face and paint the clouds and hear the music in the trees and love myself and love someone else and just feel perpetually beautiful.

But that requires the $14.99 waterproof, fire-retardant, Grade-5-hurricane-resistant mascara, not the tube that’s two bucks in Lane 4.

My shoes are dirty and outdated, but that’s how I like them. I like these shoes. They’re comfortable. Why do I need new, expensive, fashionably appealing shoes in order for someone to say, “Hey dogg, you look nice today”?

And why is it that whenever I get deathly bored and slather cheap, pore-clogging makeup all over my face everyone suddenly says, “Wow, you look pretty!”? Since when is “pretty” about whale blubber and cocoa butter?

I’ll tell you one thing, though. I most definitely am not crying about some stupid XY.

Definitely not.

I’m crying for all the whales that have to give up their fatty insulation so that some fugly anorexic super bitch can paint herself pretty every freaking day, giving him something halfway decent to oggle all the time.

Seriously, I’m not leaking saltwater over a guy.

I just think it’s cruel and unfair that the fat-endowed marine life population doesn’t even get the slightest warning that they’ll soon be on a cosmetics endcap at K-Mart.

He could have at least broken it to me gently, you know? We’ve been friends since the George Bush/Al Gore debacle.

I mean come the Bette Midler on.

I spill my blood, guts, and viscera out to this guy and he throws down the “Let’s just be friends” card without a second thought?

It’s just … it’s common courtesy to ease someone into heartbreak, not smash it over their head like a whiffleball bat.

You know what? I’m going to take my $1.99 checkout Lane 4 mascara and chuck it right at her big, stupid square head.

The author's comments:
This is literally an excerpt from my journal, so it's a little different when it comes to writing style.

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on Jan. 7 2012 at 1:11 am
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on Jan. 3 2012 at 4:33 pm
The one guy I ever poured myself out too was actually understanding. That gives me confidence, because after reading everything that other girls go through, I was scared to tell him. But, you know, you just gotta go through with it, because even though this guy didn't like me, he still hung out with me and joked. And makeup is seriously for people who need confidence. Those who have confidence don't need makeup.

on Dec. 16 2011 at 6:16 pm
BlueRain BRONZE, Clarkston, Michigan
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"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control."

The sad part is is that when they say "Let's be friends", that really means "Okay, I know you, but it's too weird to talk anymore because.. well... yeah, so let's go be on separate universes and then be all surprised when I realize halfway through the school year that you share a class or two with me."

Well, that's what they're usually thinking. But with less courtesy.

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on Dec. 16 2011 at 4:11 pm
Loftus GOLD, Ocoee, Florida
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This is pretty good. I really enjoyed this. I also love the title. Keep adding stuff from your journal! 

on Dec. 16 2011 at 3:22 pm
NicoleAnn BRONZE, St Helens, Oregon
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Wow This Is Really Good I Think You Should Make This Into A Series Or Something Like That Or Maybe Try To Publish It I Seriouslly Would Buy This If You Made It Into A Book Or Series :)

on Dec. 16 2011 at 1:58 pm
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i agree with blueeyedgirl18. this also sounds like my journal. and i get where you are coming from ont he fact that soo many guys play the "i just want to be friends" card even aftr you tell him all your idrty little secrets. how is that at all fair?

on Dec. 16 2011 at 12:32 pm
Blueeyedgirl18 GOLD, Kulpmont, Pennsylvania
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This sounds like my diary:) lol I love it:)

on Dec. 16 2011 at 11:04 am
MarissaWhitecloud SILVER, Oskaloosa, Iowa
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A little mean but I loved it. You're really good at writing.

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on Dec. 16 2011 at 9:50 am
Adnama BRONZE, Sidney, Iowa
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I really love this because it is true about a whole bunch of people including myself.  This just comes out and speaks the truth.

on Dec. 9 2011 at 10:21 am
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on Nov. 27 2011 at 9:31 pm
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on Nov. 24 2011 at 8:32 pm
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I laughed at the part where you said, like the girls who are naturally fake pretty

on Nov. 24 2011 at 6:20 pm
Dino-chan BRONZE, Wentzville, Missouri
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it seemed incompleat for some reason

on Nov. 24 2011 at 3:14 pm
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wow. i mean, really, wow. (:


fantastic story!! it totally got to me ! you just explained my life :$

on Nov. 24 2011 at 11:42 am
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on Nov. 24 2011 at 10:47 am
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on Nov. 24 2011 at 10:20 am
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on Nov. 24 2011 at 10:17 am
starlightstarbright PLATINUM, Hoffman Estates, Illinois
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"Fear of a word increases fear of the thing it said." -Albus Dumbledore, correct me if I'm wrong. Her "explicit wording" gives strength to her language, raw emotion to her story. If you read her little info post, this is an excerpt from her journal. Why would she moderate her language in a jornal? If you wish to read something without swears, don't even bother touching classic literature. A writer needs passion, and the words - ALL words- supply it to her.

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on Nov. 24 2011 at 9:55 am



1)say your name 10 times

2)say your mom's name 5 times

3)say your crush's name 3 times

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on Nov. 2 2011 at 4:45 pm
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